I believed I am the last person who saw my dear cousin Si Ting before she departed from this earth. On 23/2, we received news that her condition has taken a turn for the worst as her organs began to shut down one after another. I rushed to the hospital with my Mom and sister. Along the way, we received message that she has breathed her last. Immediately I asked my sister to activate both our husbands to pray as I had the intention to try to raise her to life. Upon reaching the hospital, we had to wait outside the room as we were told that the nurses were cleaning her and it was quite crowded as well. There was a commotion inside the room, so I began to pray to compose myself. I recalled it was less than 5mins or so, I saw Si Ting appearing outside the room. It was her spirit towering almost 2m tall and her face was like one of the younger and pretty photo with lots of hair. She gestured with her hand to wave goodbye to me before turning her back to leave and disappear. I caught a glimpse of her dress which was very long and flowing. It just looked like she was going for dancing. At that very moment, I realised that my own fear of death has been broken. I later learnt from my aunt that Si Ting has no fear of death. I shared this briefly on the 1st night of the wake that she was a gift and an angel sent by God to her Mom who is my aunt. She was here on earth with an angelic assignment. On the day of her sea burial, a picture (inserted) in The Straits Times caught my eye. It was God confirming what I have said about her that she was indeed a gift from Him. From the onset of her breast cancer, the word given to us by God was that this sickness was not unto death. Both my husband and I had prayed for her on several occasions. Indeed she did recover from her cancer but had a sudden relapse. Nonetheless, we still held on to hopes of her healing and eventual recovery. I wrestled very hard with her sudden departure. When The Straits Times published Si Ting’s story in Jan 2020, the words that flashed before my eyes were that THE KING IS COMING. Since she was here on assignment, there must be a prophetic message for us. Upon reflection, I realised that when I prayed for her on the 2nd day of CNY, the words that came out of my mouth were from Psalms 23 …even though you walked through the valley of the shadow of death you fear no evil. I was stunned and paused briefly and when I continued in prayer I said I saw her dancing. She departed 11 days later and I realised that God is saying we are living in the 11th hour. There is only one hour left before Christ returns to fetch His Bride. In Acts 1:10-11, “..two men stood by them in white apparel, who also said, ‘Men of Galilee, why do you stand gazing up into heaven? This same Jesus, who was taken up from you into heaven, will so come in like manner as you saw Him into heaven’.” On another note, just let me share with you what God showed me about her late Dad. He was with People’s Association since the ‘60s/70s for a few decades before he retired to run his own partnership. During one of my prayers with him at the hospital in his last days, God showed me a vision of a multitude of angels giving him a standing ovation. I shared this with Si Ting sometime last year that her Dad has great and significant contributions towards this nation. I believe his legacy and spirit of generosity runs in the family and both their public spiritedness will go a long way impacting not only this nation but the surrounding countries as well in years to come.
Dear See Ting,
I do not know you, nor did I follow your journey closely. I knew the waves you were making in your journey up to Him, but I refused to be caught in the fads and trending. Nonetheless, even after having returned home for months now, know that God is still using your great works here to touch lives.
For no reason I can think of, I’d stumbled on a tribute video from @abetterting and against my usual habits, watched it to the end. Seet’s testimony resonated with me. She’s right. Often times, the words of praise come from people who have moved on to greener pastures, or those whom they are survived by. Yet here, God has shoved me a testimony I cannot reject nor call into question – she was trudging through the valley, yet she says she’s not alone, not afraid. She still says her God is Good.
I am an atypical Christian, having grown up knowing God but never once going to church. I disliked the stereotypical groomed Christian types (sorry friends I may offend with this) – they seemed to live breathe and spew the Word, because they’ve never been taught otherwise. In my eyes, these people have a stepwise checklist – perform for church service, lead cell group, lead service, read the bible 5x, constantly evangelize and convert people. The more I knew, the less this seemed to be the greatness and light I associated with Christianity. It was stifling.
At some 20+years of age, I thought (as Seets also talked about in another of her works) “Christ can wait. He’s always there when I turn around, I wanna run on my own for awhile. Life’s short, have fun.”. Reading Seet’s offering on thir.st (also featured on @abetterting) shook me – these were (uncannily) my exact thoughts. She spoke to me without us having ever met once.
Even after she’s left, she continues to serve God. I daresay she was the cornerstone to God calling me back to focus on my walk.
I think my point in writing this was this. Seets and friends, who have walked her journey with her and shared her story, please know that your words continue to call His lost sheep back to Him long after you’ve returned to our Father’s side. Thank you for sharing your valley walk.
Even though I didn't know you in person, you still had such a huge impact on my life. To me the life you lived is the proof that in one's pain one can love God ever more deeply and that in one's pain God carries you ever more lovingly, as He showers you with grace and strength to bear that pain. Suffering is not something I am scared of any longer because, thanks to you, I know that in the midst of any dark season I will face in my future Jesus is and will always be the light that guides me to greener pastures, He is and will always be the rock on which I stand unshaken by the storm, He is and will always be my greatest comfort that carries me through it all.
Thank you Seets for helping me see this beautiful truth.
I am glad you suffer no more and are finally in His arms. You are finally in every Christian's true home, forever in the glorious presence of God. ❤️
I do not know her personally but her stories has touched me. Her love towards people is amazing and Her life is full of love. May you rest in peace your safe in Heaven! Your with our heavenly father Full of joy and Peace.
Dear Seets, we became fast friends during Circuit Breaker when we were introduced over Zoom with 10+ others - you’d set up this group for soul connections to be made, especially in a time of social isolation. Truth is, I’d been a fan following you for some time from @deeleow @nomando
Your bravery was in the way you confronted pain. You gave us all a glimpse of a higher love, raising your voice amid the roar of suffering in your life. And when I asked you how, or why - you’d say it was your greatest prayer and hope that everyone who witnessed your courage would go to the source of it. I really admired your steadfast faith in God with a deep-seated belief that He has always held your hand and He is good.
I saw how you were a weaver - you led your life with love, prioritising community over striving for yourself. You were the most intentional - taking time to connect with each one new to the group individually, and as I got to know you albeit virtually, I felt your very presence. You readily shared personal struggles and I was struck by your openness and realness. Repeatedly, I would be amazed reading your open Q&As to glean words of wisdom and nuggets of truth.
You saw relationships as wealth and it was clear from how you showed up for friends and strangers alike. You’d check in periodically with me to ask how I was - even though you were the one terminally ill. In the shortness of our friendship, You showed me what holding space for another looks like - validating my feelings, constantly looking to encourage and lifting me up even in your lowest of lows.
Thank you for showing me how we can acknowledge our brokenness, knowing who makes us perfect. Thank you for inspiring me how to live and love well, and for teaching me we can both grieve and be joyful. Thank you for showing me what it means to fight the good fight, run the race and keep the faith.
I’m thankful even if for less than a year, I couldn’t have been more blessed to call you a friend. I’ll always remember and miss you, and in His strength live your legacy - to act justly, love mercy and walk humbly. I know you’re dancing with Jesus now and I’ll see you again, dear sister. You’re Home. ❤️#abetterting #gdsamaritanwrites
Even though I dont know her personally,her bravery is one that i truly admire..one who fears God and sings praises even when in pain..see you in heaven:')
I started following Seets in November 2020 when my mum was diagnosed with stage 4 triple negative breast cancer. I had googled “TNBC” and the link to the article on her fight with cancer came up. I read through every article on her fight and the only word that struck through me was FAITH. Being a believer (my mum isn’t Christian), I desperately seek for God’s word to seek comfort. Hence, Seet’s Instagram stories were truly God sent. She posted so many stories on feeding on readings from the Bible’s and how she drew strength from each of it. She beautifully portrayed God’s image in the form of words which helped me through the period my mum was going through chemo. Although I have many a times wanted to DM her to share with her how much her wisdom has impacted me but I think I was too shy LOL.
Hi Seets, It’s really a shame that I never got to share with you these heartfelt words and tell you how thankful I am for being a source of light and a very dark chapter of my life. But I know I will see you one day and then thank you personally!! It’s not a goodbye but it’s a see you later!!
John 11:4 ESV “...this illness does not lead to death. It is for the glory of God, so that the Son of God may be glorified through it.”
I was feeling the loss of Seets, and started to write out how i felt which ended up in a whole blogpost about it. that is the impact she has had on someone who has not even crossed paths with her before. The power and influence she has had, the life she has lived is inspirational and admirable.
Dear Seets , I never got to meet you in person but I read about you and prayed from afar, moved and inspired by your story and vocal faith, you wore it proud and valiantly.
Just wanted to let you know I’m so honoured to have you shoot that portrait of yourself in that red dress at our space .
A little story behind the table setting, which you stood in front off....I remember coming in one day to clean up and arrange the space like any other day and for some reason I was just inspired/ lead to spend more time on that corner of the space than usual, and I know why...it was meant to receive you. I’m so humbled and encouraged that our God knows beginning to end and that he has us , you in his hand.
Thank you for sharing your journey with me and my family, I look forward to connecting with you in heaven one day.
Although I dont know you personally, I have been following you and reading so much about you and you truly inspire me with your bravery, courage, and love for everyone around you. You have shown so much strength in being a light and inspiration to everyone. Even though you are 29, you have such a big heart and you are such a warrior.
Your story and life will continue to live on and because of you, I will try to be a better person to people around me. To keep giving love wherever I go.
Rest in peace, Seets. You are so loved.
Roy & Annie
Even though we’ve met over zoom only a couple of times, you’ve impacted us in such powerful way - not just through your words or stories you shared, but the generosity and warmth you uttered every word with. It was an absolute honour for us to have exchanged thoughts together, and we only wish we had more. Even through a virtual platform, you were able to bring your passion, your energy, and your wisdom across with such impact. Your generous giving inspires all of us to give more, and this impact will forever stay, for eternity to come in both of our lives. Thank you, see you on the other side :”)
I learnt about Seets through the articles I read on thir.st. On and off, I would read them as though I was following her journey. I don't know her personally but I am very moved by her faith in the Lord. How, despite the difficulties and hardships, she still trusted in His goodness. It is not easy. Yet, if anything, it compels me to seek a deeper revelation of who God is. From a stranger, thank you Seets.
i was feeling the loss of Seets eventho I'm just a stranger who has been following her on ig for a few months, so I just started writing and suddenly I have a post about it. :) I just thought I'd send it here.
Hannah Lois Ng
14 May 2020: I was about to have a difficult conversation with someone, and felt a need for prayer, and somehow decided to Whatsapp her: "...though you only just met us once I just thought to reach out for prayer. Dunno if I will ever share w you the details of it (perhaps in His time) - I feel like you & Ian will be good people to understand/share with, eventually! But maybe for now, if able, you can pray [for this conversation]?"
Context: We had only met once, and really were more like acquaintances-through-Ian-and-social-media. Yet amazingly, characteristically, Seets agreed ("yes of course, will pray! i’ll send a quick prayer over here too -") and opened a space ("will be happy to hold space if you wish to talk abt it later!")
When I never followed up, it was her who took the initiative to text me the next day to ask how the conversation had gone.
I want to honour her faithfulness and the love she poured out, even for someone who wasn't close. Truly, like Ian said, she taught us how to love. I pray I may walk with Jesus and love like she did.
As a fellow victim of AA, I am thankful for all the articles, features that you've been on. It has impacted me in the sense that I feel like I am not alone in this, and that someone out there is fighting the same battle as me. It is about the physical appearance that affects our mental at times, and no doubt that this mental battle that we have to fight everyday does tires me out a bit, and the fatigue sets in especially when you receive remarks that are not as nice, or sensitive.
One day, I took the chance, and felt like I need to do a part in this too like you did, and shared my experience in this battle when I was 19, in front of more than hundreds of my fellow classmates. I've never taken off my beanie in public for all my life then, but in that moment when I did, I felt liberation. I thank you for that push that you provided, and I'm really thankful for this.
Like the few others who's sending you a tribute, I don't know you personally, but I'd still like to thank you for sending positive vibes through these articles online. It was such a great help.
It's time for you to rest, angel. Thank you so much for gracing the earth.
My favourite memory was when I first connected with Seets through Instagram messaging on 28 Jan 2020 before she went for her mastectomy surgery. I only knew her through her stories on thir.st and jonks so I actually didn’t know what to pray but somehow Psalms 23 just came to me. And now knowing how much Psalms 23 was so dear to Seets, it shows how God really orchestrated that Word to be weave in her story and is so constant in her life and how she herself too amidst her suffering and struggle was also constantly sharing vulnerably her stories of faith and love! So for that I am so encouraged to live and shine the light of Jesus regardless of our circumstances. P.S we also had shared some same sentiments about the whole woke culture during GE lol
Even though we didn’t have the privilege of crossing paths physically, your stories and life have so beautifully reflected what Christlikeness looks like in real, tangible, human ways.
Thank you for running the race and enduring till the very end. Your legacy and impact will live on in immeasurable ways 💗
Dear See Ting,
I do not know you personally, but I have read articles and followed your journey on IG. Thank you for making me become closer to Jesus in this time of the pandemic. Thank you for making me discover more worship songs that would cleanse my soul. Highlands became one of my favorites, I now realised on how you can relate to it. Your fight with cancer also taught me not to give up on simple problems that I can deal with right away because I witnessed how you did not give up with yours. Your IG stories make my day complete with his loving arms as it captures my heart. I have my utmost admiration for you Seets, Although I was looking forward to your wedding and your victories with your disease, I wish also that you lived longer too, but I am happy that you are with Jesus's loving arms as you are not suffering any more as it breaks my heart for you to suffer. Thank you for touching my life for strengthening my faith in God all the way to the Philippines.
Eternal rest grant unto them, O Lord,
and let perpetual light shine upon them.
May they rest in peace.
Rest well Seets in paradise with his loving arms.
My favourite memory of Seets would be when she was smiling from ear to ear, telling me about how her hair was starting to grow back again. She then asked me for hair salon recommendations because she really wanted to give it a nice trim :-)
Seets has really changed my life forever. Although our friendship consisted of mainly sending each other dog pictures on Instagram, sending prayers for one another and only meeting once in real life to have tea together, it was my utmost privilege to have had a chance to know her personally.
I actually went to meet Seets after staying over at my late grandfather's house - without having slept a wink. The night before was extremely rough as I was keeping vigil over my grandfather, praying over him and for his salvation as he was suffering from end-stage colon cancer.
It was as if she knew that she was there that very day to minister to me. While we chatted about my spiritual life, I received a call from my mum asking me where I was and that I would need to go back to my grandfather's house later at night as things were not looking good.
She held my hand while I cried (more like ugly bawled) and began to share with me about her late father's passing and her own struggles. One thing she told me that has stuck with me since then was: "It's not easy at all to always be the responsible and mature one. Even Jesus wept, so there is no need to hide your grief from Him or from me.". She held me in my weariness, my pain and my grief there and then, and prayed over me. It was one of the first few times in my life I let all my walls and defences down in front of a person.
It was never by coincidence that I got to meet Seets and even sustain a small friendship with her through occasional texts and DMs via Instagram. In fact, I strongly believe that God planned it from the very beginning. Because of how Seets has impacted me, I can now confidently say I will dedicate the rest of my life to pursuing Jesus relentlessly. And this I now know is also her prayer for me coming true. I will look forward to seeing her again and letting her and God know that I have done them proud.
What a privilege to find Jesus and a wholesome friendship in Seets during this earthly life. I am eternally grateful <3
I met Seets through a youth facilitation program in 2016. At that time I had just returned to Singapore for good and was going through one of my lowest periods when my grandmother was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer. It was one of the days after the facilitations where I was very distraught over my grandmother blaming God and everyone around. Seets saw this and came over to comfort me. Her words helped me a lot when I was going through this really tough and difficult period. “What you need to do is just to be with her. That’s what would mean a lot to her is to be my her side no matter what happens. I had alopecia and cancer previously. When I was going through treatments, chemo and was constantly in the hospital, I broke down a lot when I saw my hair falling and my body at my weakest. What got me through that period was God as well as my boyfriend Ian. Him being by my side and picking up the piece meant a lot to me. So likewise for your grandmother, though she might be blaming a lot, but I have been there and understand that too. Just be with her no matter what she is going through” I kept these words close to my heart every time my grandmother had an emotional breakdown. Seets is an amazing person full of compassion, love and empathy, someone I won’t forget. Rest In Peace Seets, no more pain.
She shared God's story in her story at Red Box Christmas (Evangelistic Event). It was Authentic and vulnerable yet in her story God is glorified!
Her story impacted the pre-believers that was in the event. I thank the Lord for giving her the strength and using her as HIS mouth pierce to communicate "God with us"
Dear See Ting,
I do not know you personally or met you but yet you have left such a profound impact on my life. When I first came across Trading Crowns- your words piece up so beautifully that gave an answer to my long-standing question.
Subsequently, I started to "stalked" you on Instagram and oh I always stopped to read the majority of the post and stories you posted. Every word you wrote left a personal touch (it almost felt like I could relate to every word of it) and a profound impact to me. From someone that I came across on Instagram to one woman that became my role model.
I have utmost respect and admiration for you. Although I wished that you could lived longer and impact the world with your beautiful expression of words but I am thankful that you are in the arms of the father now. How are you over there? Will you be looking down when I am looking up.
I hope you know the countless lives that you have touched with your story over the past few days. See Ting, you are one woman of faith that truly embodies strength from within.
Now rest, you have done well precious one!
Seets has shown me what is it like to be a strong person. I will always always remember her as a role model of strength and belief. See you Seets. God bless.
Brokenness made whole
Beauty came forth
Shining like gold
Death couldn’t withhold
The glorious radiance she gave
Like a beacon of light
Guiding the ships
Out of stormy seas
Inspiring them to be confident on their voyage towards their destiny